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How many months has it been? Three?! This is a problem. 🙁

It’s a fact that I get drawn to this place when I’m lonely, and tend to stay away when things are going especially well. 

Things between Andrew and I are… lukewarm at best and have been for about a month. I don’t really know how to put into words the things that I’m feeling and seeing, but as more time passes I feel more sure that things are going to end. I’m more sad about the impending loneliness than anything… it’s nice having somebody around, and we do have a lot of fun together. With that said, there has always been a bit of a disconnect between the two of us, and I know that we both see and feel it.

He’s pulling away instead of being concrete and forthcoming, which is clearly his MO. I know what this means. I, personally, feel a much stronger sense of anxiety when I’m left to put together the pieces of what’s happening on my own, so I need to find time to discuss what’s happening with him… but it’s hard to breech this subject with somebody who has an avoidant personality. 

Watch me ramble.