The Ask Matt Random Questions Event Part III

There’s still loads of questions to answer (and there’s still even more coming in!) so I’ll cut right to them with a question from a private noter:
 
1. I have a question why do you keep an Open Diary? Also, do you enjoy the attention you receive from your readers, or do you write for yourself?
 
I think that I naturally write to an audience. One of the common writing mantras is “Show don’t tell” which is completely goes against the way I write – I tell. I’ve always written my OD entries with the idea of telling other people about my life, even if it was just random people that I didn’t know at the beginning. Generally speaking, it’s always been hard for me to write “just for myself,” for some reason my mind needs a purpose to write, however pointless. The “audience” of OD, however small it might be, provides me with that.
 
As for the first part of the question, I keep an OD now because I’ve made tons of friends on the site and am part of the whole community and I really enjoy being a part of it and can’t imagine leaving. Actually, that’s pretty much always been the reason I’ve had one, other than when I started the diary initially, which was just out of boredom. But the reason I decided to continue writing in it was that I quickly got attached to making friends here with people around the world and sharing my life with them. It’s a unique interaction. I love Open Diary.  
 
And now SLP to Be chimes in with 4 questions:
 
1. Where do you hope to travel in the future?
 
I don’t know, most any place that I haven’t been before sounds enticing. I’ve never been outside of the U.S., so I’d love to go anywhere. As I said in the last entry though, I’m more apt to fly across the world to see a friend I’ve made online than I am to see a city – people are more important to me than places (hah, this is apparently my new motto).
 
2. What is your middle name?
 
Halbert. My dad is also named Halbert and has a twin brother named Talbert. I can’t make this stuff up.
 
3. Do you think you are attractive (I think you are adorable)?
 
I honestly don’t really know, I’m terrible at judging the attractiveness of other males and I’m so biased when it comes to judging my own attractiveness that it’s pretty much impossible. Just going by the general reaction I get from females, I think that some girls find me attractive and others don’t, which I suppose goes without saying. Or as I once overheard a high school classmate say in reference to me “Some people be talkin about he’s fine, but I think he looks like a monkey.”
 
If I only listened to what people told me online, I’d be convinced I had a future career as a supermodel, though. However, considering I’m a short, scrawny kid, I’m not very convinced that I am or ever will be a heartthrob, no.
 
4. What are you most proud of yourself for (task accomplished or personality trait)?
 
That’s a good question. The personality traits I take the most pride in are probably honesty and loyalty. I really stress being honest with people. I know that “white lies” are pretty much considered acceptable on most people’s moral compass, but I do my best to eliminate those too. I admit, I don’t always succeed, but I honestly think I do a pretty good job and it’s definitely something I take pride in. I also take pride in being a good friend to others and being so even when it’s hard on me. As Heather would say, I don’t want to only love when it’s convenient.
 
As far as a task accomplished, I think in hindsight I’m most proud of myself for persevering through high school and graduating second in my class despite the overwhelming, er, social problems that I had that I sometimes vaguely write about here.
 
Yes, good questions SLP to Be. Next up is a pair of questions from michael.
 
Well, would you have drunken sex with me?
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No.
 
Is it a requirement to be a virgin to get on your favourites list and how did I slip through?
 
Actually, a quick count shows that only 5 of the 30-40 favorites that I read regularly are actually virgins (I’m making an assumption on you, Yesterday’s Girl). So, about 15% of my favorites are virgins. I am not sure how that correlates with the national percentage, but that doesn’t seem like that many, and certainly not all of my favorites are. So there.
 
Now that I’ve put Michael in his place, we jump right along to some questions from Mary.
 
Why won’t you admit you love me?
 
Psh, this question obviously does not pass the “reasonableness” test. Because I do love you Mary! In a platonic way, of course.
 
How come you love Donna more than me?
 
And yet another question that does not pass the reasonableness test. Mary, may I remind you that, on the evening that I interacted with both you and Donna, I sat with you at the bar while Donna shouted at me and tried to pry me away from you. Obviously, you must be more in my favor than Donna.
 
Why can’t you have sex dreams about me!?
Mary, I’ve never had sex dreams about anyone but Donna’s friend, Tina. Well, her and completely anonymous girls. Once, I even had a dream that I had sex with a middle-aged woman. In my dream, she was friends with my mom. But, yes, I can’t explain why I don’t have sex dreams about you Mary, that is a question only my unconscious knows the answer to.
 
And, finally, we’ll close for the day with a question from Savvy, Yo.
 
Hmm, yes, WOULD you ever consider having drunken sex with me?
 
Throwing ever and consider into any question nearly always makes the answer yes for me. There’s not many things I wouldn’t ever consider doing, given the right circumstances. The earlier question about having sex with Michael does happen to be one of them.
 
And with that I’m going to end the entry for today. There’s still a few more late questions that I haven’t got to yet, but I should finish up the whole question thing tomorrow. And then I’ll have to write about the actual events of my life again. So, you have something to look forward to?