02/26/2012

There’s so much you can do, but so little you’re willing to do for me voluntarily.

Is it too much to even hope that you would be concerned for my safety, to want to protect me from harm?

The other day 3S just said to me that you’re already a very good boyfriend, to be able to bear with all my tantrums an mood swings. I could only smile ruefully. And I have too tried to believe it when you tell me how much you love me. Oh, you don’t know how much I try. But your actions often say otherwise.

How tempted I was to just not appear, and see how long it would take for you to start worrying. Or perhaps you wouldn’t at all.

I miss that look I’ve seen once on your face, close to tears with worry. But that was ages ago. Now it’s merely nonchalance, or perhaps even irritation.

Seems like we have lost the battle against time.

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jgg
February 26, 2012

i see this quite often, but mostly from female friends. it’s this sense of confidence n trust that their other half can take care of themselves so there’s nothing to worry. on the other, perhaps also to calm themselves since they can’t do anything.

February 28, 2012

ryn:there are two villas, 1 facing the beach totally..but on low ground, zw say if really big waves come sure die…so we opted the one on higher ground, still facing ocean i think..

March 3, 2012

I think the measurement of a ‘good’ partner is not how well they can tolerate us, but rather how good they can make us feel. Measure from the top rather than below. Having said that, with time and with extremely stressful situation, it’s easy to forget how to communicate properly.

thanks, joyce, just feeling so jaded…

Partly becoz look after the 2 boys till i tired.. lots of reasons la.. haiz… Thats y i say i can look after myself. But additional 2 more big kids is too much.. =/. Friend is friend la. But seriously… The gong zi bing…. Haiz