¿¿How random can you get??

So it is like 2.20 in the moring my time. I say mine, cause well it is mine..lol. I am feeling a little goofy. Not tired, but I know I need to sleep. But to sleep is just going to make me think before I sleep. I might have to pull out that Harry Potter book I have been trying to read so that I can fall asleep faster. Maybe, maybe not.

I got some decent news tonight. My other three fantast teams fell thru. I got some decied picks. And the WME team..yeah it is off the hook. Makes me wanna get another one just for sh t and giggles. Don’t know I will think about that tomorrow, after I balance my checkbook and pay some bills. I hate staying up this late, but it is so addicting. I know come tomorrow three in the afternoon will be rolling around before i even decide to roll over..lol. Na, I have many intresting things to do. I have a list, but I seemed to have lost it.

I have a dentist appointment on thursday. Really looking foward to it. Last time I went about six months ago..it wasn’t to bad. It hurt, but that is what happens when you try to be funny with the doc. She took that pick and that hook and went to town with a cleaning. I think I must have spit out about three pints of blood before it was all said and done. I didn’t eat nothing for like two days, cause my teeth felt so loose, I was afraid that if I took a bit out of something, they would like all fall out. Needless to say, I am going to another one this time..so lets just see what happens.

I also have to make an appointment with the eye doctor to see if I can get some new specticals. Mine are a little bent out of shape. Not tape holding them together..but they are in rough shape. I fear though, that I might be loosing my eyesight on my left eye, cause when I close my right, it takes me a while to focus, and sometimes, I can’t focus at all. I think this might be a late..late…late…side effect of that accident that I had in 1990. I know for sure I have ..and I can’t spell it..so here it goes..autigmatisim. Shot in the dark, I am not a good speller..and that is a big word for me..lol. Do yeah I really don’t know if that stuff gets worste by the years, or if it is just me. TIme will tell…Time well tell…

I had what I would consider and intresting conversation tonight. Granted it was more like messaging wars, but I must say that this is offically the first time I have "chated" by the means of leaving someone notes. It was kinda cool I suppose. The person I was talking to, seems really nice and ambitious. Has a way with words that is for sure. I was suprised at some things, and there were others that left me thinking…the last name for one..lol. So yeah it was a good conversation. What will become of it..ah I don’t know.

I am still waiting for the call. Ha, guess it is never going to happen. I should have know, yet here I am like a puppet waiting for her to twitch her arm and make me go coo coo once again. Yeah just like a freaking puppet..I just sit and wait. God it sucks huh? Yeah I know nothing I can do about it. Kinda like a thorn from a fresh cut rose that gets into your palm…you know its there..and you want to take it out..but it reminds you of the beautiful flower that gave it to you, and now the flower is gone, and you just want something to remember it by. Hell I don’t know what I am doing any more. I wish I could just make up my mind and do what needs to be done. But I know I will doing it half ass, and well half ass never gets you anywhere. You are going to be sitting there with doughts of what could have been and what might have happened if you hadn’t done what you did. Instead, I think I will just back and suffer. Maybe one days, I will have the gail to just say f ck it and move on..And right after that, I am going to go on a drinking binge and call her…Yeah almost like a freaking movie. Instead of acting though..it is for reals. And that my friends is what hurts the most. I listened to a song the other day, called Far Away…and these words just seem to hit…."Been far away for far too long….I keep dreaming you’ll be with me…and you’ll never go" Oh well tomato toemato…Life will go on…I am sure of that…

Time to crash and burn..actually I think I am going to go back and random read my entries..think of the good times..the bad times..and the times when what the f ck was I thinking was an understatement..Take care and till then….