Dear Megan…

Dearest Megan,

Now I don’t know if I’m a little emotional (read: weepy) because of a hormonal imbalance or because I just saw Toy Story 3, but I’ve just been overcome with the realization that I haven’t seen you for far too long. And I don’t mean Skype, I mean a real face-to-face communication.

Now please don’t see this as some sort of emotional breakdown or whatever, I just need to say this to someone, and it just so happens that everyone that I can talk to about these things are out of Winnipeg. I’m feeling a little lonely.

Toy Story 3 (which is freaking genius, by the way) really made me realize how the song "You’ve Got a Friend in Me" really speaks about our friendship. I know that sounds incredibly corny, but there it is. It talks about how through all the bad times, we will always be there for each other. That no matter how things change, we will still be friends. Being your friend has helped me out so much. Never have I felt so confident in anything before. If I had said any of this to anyone else, I would feel beyond ridiculous. With you though, it just feels like I need to say it.

I’ve never been one to express myself emotionally. I’ve learned it’s best to keep your emotions to yourself. In my experience, you share too much of yourself, people tend to get scared and run. Or you just feel stupid. It has been really hard lately to keep all these things to myself, so I kind of feel the need to get it out of my system before I start leaking again.

I’m sorry that this sounds so whiny, and I’m sorry if this sounds incredibly emo. Most of all, I’m sorry that I can’t actually send this to you. As much as our friendship has helped me get past some of my stronger insecurities, I still don’t have enough confidence to send this letter to you.

Maybe one day I’ll be able to. Until then, just getting this out into the universe helps.

Thanks for being there Megan. You have no idea how much you’ve saved me.