Our poor hearts crave…

What happens when you realize that you have feelings for someone you already screwed it up with?

Sure, I can pretend nothing is wrong, everything is just as it always has been. I’m good at pretending.

But when I think of him with someone else, I get this heavy feeling in my gut. I don’t know what I’m going to do when he gets a girlfriend.

And I am NOT this kind of girl. I do not fawn over someone, and I do NOT sit pathetically on the sidelines.

But I’m terrified of him rejecting me, because I’m the one who ended it in the first place.

And what if I screw it up again? There would be no friendship afterward. There would be nothing to go back to.

What do I do?