The Scapegoat

I had no idea.

How was I supposed to know when no one talks to me?

Why is it that when people say "friendship is a two way street", one party is always more at fault then another? Why is it always me? When contact gets a little strained, it’s because of me. If life gets busy with work, or rehearsal, or school, they don’t understand why I can’t spare any time. I HARDLY HAVE TIME TO SLEEP. Sure, if you’re busy, it’s justified. But when I’m busy? I am purposefully trying to ignore you.

How is any of this fair?

And to tell my sister? To let her know how much of a loner I am? To let her know how unliked I am? You go to my sister?! How could you?

What I’m getting at here: Apparently, I am the scapegoat.

And let me tell you, it’s really hard shouldering everyone’s blame.

Wow, two entries in two days. My life must really be that bad.