Jon and I

What do I say about this guy…..WOW how can one person grow on you so quickly while knowing them for 5 years????  He makes me feel….”alive” I guess that would be the best word…Yet I am not in a stage where I feel too much for him…or where I feel “trapped” by being in a relationship…because simply…I am not in one…..Jon and I can have a barrell of laughs, sit up all night and discuss anything at all, sleep in eachothers arms, giggle the whole night through, and yet still not see eachother for a week….And be okay with this!!!!! This is the weirdest “thing” I have gone through with a guy.  He doesn’t want me to date him because he tells me to chase my dreams before chasing him….LOL No man had EVER said that…I am so used to men being like “Hey over here! Hello pay attention”…and then when I do pay attention it’s “Let’s ignore her now that we have her”…..FUCK man I just don’t get it….Did I actually find a really nice one….???? Is he really okay with patiently waiting for me to start my life like I want too????  And yet when my ex finds out that Jon and I are even spending time together he is going to have a bird! Not that he has any say in the matter but I would pay anything to be a fly on that wall when the shit hits the fan about us.   He can’t do it with his “girlfriend” ( the one he lies to me about having lol ) around because taht would mean he has to pretend like he doesn’t care!  Which honestly suits me just fine!!!!  Jon wants to tell him about “us”  And I say just leave it alone when the time comes, actually if ever! then we will deal with it then and only then…..anyways timef or me to hit the sack…. 8:30 am comes early have to walk the girls to school!!!!! Love, peace, CHICKEN GREASE!!!!

Love,
Me