Black friday

So today is black friday…. The biggest shopping day of the year, the day when all the nut cases come out and fight over materialistic things. I mena really if you honestly didnt get what you wanted for christmas does it really matter. I mean the fact that you able to see christmas shouldnt it be enough……Ummm you’d think but No lol J-kay

I love christmas if you have any of my other entries you would know that i am obsessed with it. If i could i’d open my own christmas store probably in the north pole. I love the warm feeeling it gives, the love that u feel, the innocence of children playin in the snow, The romance, the happiness u can give to others.

And that was my mission. I was one of those ut cases today. I was in line at 4am(with the help of Angel) waiting for a DS for my son. Because since july he has been wanting a pokemon game, so i go it, but then had to get the system so he could play it. Otherwise he’d just stare at a box all day…lol I picked up a few other things as well spent a total of 190$ and thats not including the DS. Just so that my lil boy will be happy on christmas morning. SO he can belive in the magic of santa claus.

But you know what was the most satisfing part of this entire day. It wasnt that i accomplished my goal(3times today),  It wasnt that i didnt get into a car accident, or a fight, or that i beat somebody else to something. It was the fact that it snowed! As silly as it sounds I was not more happier when i walked outta walmart and seen the snow falling.

Do you know the most dissapointing part of the day. The factt that even tho it snowed, even tho i accomplished my goal, even tho i can make jayden happy. Bryan still didnt feel the slightest bit of the christmas spirit. In fact he was kind of a scrooge today. And despite everything he was dissapointed that i didnt pick up my own christmas gift. I mean I know i want a pairt of slippers for christmas thats great. But what i want the most is for bryan to enjoy christmas, for him to make me a card or something that shows he put thought into my gift, That even if it wasnt dome spectacular gift it was from him and his heart. But once again for the 5th year in a row thats not going to happen. Im begging to think his heart becomes frozen during this time.

I gotta go write more later