I didnt hit u i high fived your face

Im starting to get depressed, not one of those i hate the world and everyone in depressed, Its a i cant beleive its been a month and i still dont have a job depression. And maybe that was what my issue was the other day but there are just some things that are just uncalled for.

You see a couple days ago bryan was cleanin out the fridge and he asked me a question and i went over to look at what he was talkin about and he started throwing some spaghettie sauce down the drain and i looked at a few things in the fridge to throw away and he got mad(iwas tryin to help) and then he was like u need to clean the sink cause this dayum sauce wont go down. So i started to do that cause it had mushrooms in it. And then he tried to take the trash out and it was so full the bag ripped and he just started yelling and was like are you onna F*n help me with this( i was cleaning out the sink like u asked now u want me to do this make up ur mind what u want me to do) and i was like hold on, Then he started yelling. SO i went on the porch so he could calm down in peace(iwas mad but i wasnt like ahhh mad) So he comes out and was like are u gonna help me or what. So i get up and start to walk in the house. I dont know if he was tryin to play and be funny but he kind of pushed me and i told him not to and he did it again. So i turned around and instinctively i hit/slapped him. … So he picked me up and slammed me on the couch. ANd i could tell he wanted to hit extremely bad but he didnt(nor would he dare to) But i told him that i have had enough and we got into this huge arguement and we didnt resolve anything which is the worst way to leave an argument….

So the last couple days hes been acting normal around me which is weird because i dont want normal. I want something else(sounds crazy cause i dont know what) So i’ve been kind of depressed cause i need a job because i really dont want to go back to my parents house, but for reall trying to decide when enough is enough is a hard thing to do. I think oneday im gonna have to develope some balls and just say goodbye