No respect

So i told bryan early yesterday morning that i wasnt having sex with him anymore until i felt right about myself. What does he do??? he takes it the wrong way and assume i dont want to have sex with him because of our fight the other day. And honestly yeah it had something to do with. In the fact that it gave me a chance to think about a lot of things. And it may seem that my reasoning may be the fight but the first thing i learned was that u cant love anyone else til u can truely love urself, and at this point i dont love myself. My kids are a different story they are apart of me and thats the part i do love but theres another side that i dont love.

So later on the day we were talking and i told him that as much as i love him i dont know how much IN love with him i am. do u think that registered with him??? NOPE he hasnt said a word about it, he keeps coming back to SEX. He keeps asking me if it has to do with him and dadadada. Im ike i dont know how much clearer i can make it.

So today he tried rubbin on me and making out with me and im like dude im tryin to cook lunch!!!! so as im standing there he like kind of starts to cry and i was like are u serious??? ur crying cause i wont sleep with u?? and he was like yeah u dont know how bad i need!!! WTF

so i let it be and started cleaning the house and he did the dishes and got this attitude. So then we were layin on the couch and he tried rubbin on me again and he was like this isnt doin anything(i wasdetracting myself) and i was like no. and i got up and walked away and he was like What do i have to do. Im like RESPECT ME obviously u dont!!!!So he ran upstairs like a baby.

WTF, if i dont feel that way he should respect my wishes and give me some time and space. Which he hasnt everytime i turn around hes up my ass and i asked him why and he was like i dont want u to leave. Like dude why do i want to stay when u cant do a single thing i ask. He is so selfish its bringing close to my breaking point. I would rather leave him then go against something i dont feel right doing right now