Optomistic

So im trying to be optomistic about the new year. Im trying to believe that its going to turn around this year and im going to get a job and on the right track. I was even off to a good strat…Sort of. I had an interveiw today to be a receptionist for a vet clinic. And the interview  was starting off good and i was hyped. Even though this job wasnt in my field that i just spent two years in school for i was looking forward to making money…. ANd then she asked me if i was tired of the human aspect of the medical field and that was why i was trying this. And my mind jumbled. I couldnt be like "Oh im not tired of it i just need a job cause im broke!", so the interview didnt finish as well as i hoped but i am being optomistic and hoping i get a call for the second part.

As for other things my new year went off as i expected it to. I was asleep when the ball dropped, that was until the neighborhood children decided to go outside and scream happy new year while banging pots. I swear these ppl in this nieghborhood sont respect anybody. I mean yeah it was new years a lot of people are awake but both my kids were asleep and so was I so really they had to be loud like that??? But what ever i can wait to be able to move on from this place and be in a house i can own and fix up and do what i want to it. And know when something breaks it’ll get fixed because i will do it.

Theres optomism for ya lloking toward the good of the futre. I even place this tarot card reading thing on facebook and got the wheel of fortune card and it said good luck was coming my way. YAY!!!

I do know that it wont be because of bryan though.

If you have been reading my diary for a while and can remember back a year ago I made a bet with bryan. And the bet basically was that in a year he would still be working for Wendy’s and he wouldnt have his GED or even thinking about going back to school. And he told me i was wrong.

Well today i told him he lost. I know he still has like a month but nothing is going to motivate that boy. I know him to well. So now I have lost all respect for him. And i understand that I dont have a job so i cant contribute abd yada yada yada. But seriously how hard is it to go down to the library and sign up when his schedule has been basically the same for a while and his boss is willing towork with him really its that hard. Oh wait it is hard to get ur fat lazy butt off the couch and stop sleeping all the time to care!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh I just want out. I am trapped and going through the motions and its starting to get to me.

I gotta stop now. I have been up for 18 hours and my brain is on shut down mode, I can go on forever but i have to try to sleep

Night