Sad Valentines

My friend Ashely called me thursday night and told me that she was in the hosp She was having bad cramps and she went and they couldntfind her baby’s heartbeat and then they did an ultrasound and found out he had died. Then the induced her into labor and she never had him until this morning.

Her child father left her a couple weeks ago so valentines day was going to suck anyways and now this happens! My heart goes out to her because i wouldnt know what i would do in that situation, I would probably die. My kids are my world and I know this is going to sound Clishae(s/p?) and all but sometimes i dont know what i did without them. They are so much of my life now that even though i had so much fun when i was younger i cant imagine the world without them now.

I went to see her today and i didnt stay long because the more i was there the more i wanted to cry. I even held my tears back walking down the hall to go to my car. I didnt know what to say to her because nobody ever thinks about situations like this and you dont want to say teh wrong thing and upset them. But i wanna make her something for her something special I hope it will make her happy. At least her familywas there through it all.

Im a lil upset though because when she went into the hosp they tried to find the heartbeat on the machine and couldnt so they gave her an ultrasound and they looked twice for it and they still couldnt find it and they didnt know how he died so they were going to an autopsy when it was born except when she did deliver him his cord was wrapped twice around his neck. And i just dont understand how they didnt see that in the ultrasound because you can see where the cord is in the ultrasoun!

But i dont know Im gonna go see it bryan will give me money so that i can make her something

cya