Tryin

So this morning I woke up and fed Mayson and then went to my Obg for a follow up. I still been havin these pains, but my ultrasound was clean and my pap came abck normal so WTF. Then she was like well maybe its part of ur cycle and was askin me when i got the pains. And i was like its a daily basis thing and its not like i do the same thing when i get em i just get em at random times and they go away at random times. And she was like are u on BC and i was like and then she was like Why not(like dude it isnt mandatory) but i was like i dont wanna mess with my body I like just lettin it do what it needs to do. So then she went and asked another doctor, and she comes back in and goes he said the first thing to always try is BC and i was like okay and she was like can u do a pill or a shot and i was like hell no cant remember to take a pill and with the shot u gotta be real concious about what u eat or u’ll gain weight and guess what i love to eat so if anything i want the ring. and she was like well ur insurance doesnt cover it here, so u may have to go to PP, and i told her bout how i did my externship there and how its does cover it so she gave me the script and said to see if the pharmacy will do it.

SO i left and called my insurance and they was like yeah we just need a prior authorization from ur doc and she gave me all the info i need so when i called the doc back the line was busy so i left a message and that was like at 9:30a and no nurse or anybody called me back yet so im like yaknow what im bout to take my butt to statcare and ask em to test my pee to make sure i dont have a kidney infection or somethin simple like that. just to rule it out cause im not on takin BC and if i dont ahve to dont want to.

So anyways after all that was said and done i come home and im sittin here and bryans mom comes home to change to go back over marianns and clea the house. ANd i was gonna take bryan to see INglorious Bastards cause his BDay was yesterday. Nancy was gonna watch Mace and my grandma took jay to play at some play place. So i wake him up to see if he still wanna go and he like NO i wanna sleep.

Well of course MF wanna sleep he was up all ngght messin round with his friends, The same friends who called hime yesterday morning to tell em they was comin over to habg that they were sick the night before when they was pose to come over. And then these friends didnt even come over all day yesterday and end up calling as were drivin home after he got off work.

So lets get this straight they had everyoppurtunity to come over during the day during a decent time and dont bother to show or call and say why. WTF

IM done tryin Never spend time together cept when were watching tv or hes tellin me bout something thats goin on with sum1 else. LIKE MO FO CAN WE GO ON A DATE OR SOMETHING.

U know as i think about it we have never really been out unless it was with his friends, So why bother. Im surprised that when they called the other night to go out and see Halloween2 he didnt wanna go, prolly caus ei aint wanna go and end up beating ther girlfriends ass. Cause the one is a stuck up bitch and they bout got kids and are still into acting like a kid.

Yakno what now that i think about it maybe chris only comes over at night so he dont see me. IDK why i mean at least Zerrick i know because he had a crush on me and he prolly feels weird but dayum he rather spend time with them then me!

Well i just needed a place to rant and rave since im not being listened to

im done now

cya