100% Honesty Conclusion

My friend Amy told me this morning she’s glad I’m finally putting my tail between my legs and admitting its over. I see it differently I see it as holding my head up high for I know that I found my soul mate and that I have learned that I do not have to be with him forever. I know who he is and that I have learned that just because you dont end up with your soulmate doesnt mean your settling. Because your soulmate may very well be what you settled for. I have learned that just because your soulmates doesnt mean the two of you are at the same place in life, or are ready for each other. You can actually find someone better for you in this life than your soulmate. I have learned that I will always love Byron, my soul will always recognize him, but I do not have to spend my life with him to be happy. That I can find contentment with in myself.

Byron if you did read all the way through this, please know that I will always love you, and my soul is forever aware of you, that I would give up enternity to be by your side if you should ever need me to. Or rather simply put “What dreams May Come” my love, what dreams may come.

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So now I walk forward in my life, with a possibility of a chance to see where God takes me. I have spoken to John regarding my feelings for Joey. He said it was up to me to decide but that he did not see my wanting to be with Joey only because I just wanted soemeone. Not like Byron going to Jaki because he felt the grass was greener (my opinion not John’s) but Joey and I have a past, a long standing past friendship. I have thought on this a lot and I know this might be the hardest relationship I ever stepped into. But I do love Joey, I have for over two years, and I really want to explore this love. I have really considered the possibility if I might just be putting my want for a boyfriend on Joey. But when I consider the fact I had strong feelings for Joey before Byron and I broke up, even before Byron and I had met.

When I hear Joey tell me he loves me I admit its not the heart pounding through my chest exhiliratioin I felt with Byron, but a softer happiness and contentment. I can close my eyes and picture Joey sitting in an old fashioned wooden rocking chair, with me sitting curled up on his lap, resting my head on his chest, with his arms wrapped around me. Just sitting there in complete quietness. Or a patio porch swing just the tow of us in the quietness watching the sunset or rise. Just in peace and contentment. Its hard to compare my love with Byron with my love with Joey. A soulmate like Byron is far stronger and deeper with out explanation just a pull on one’s soul. But a love like Joey’s, it is deeply felt and just as meaningful just with out the strong need for the other person. I love Joey with out feeling that I need him. I love him and its as simple as that.

My friend Amy’s quote right now is “The best relationships come when you love each other more than you need each other.” Im going to end it on simply that….

“The best relationships come when you love each other more than you need each other.”