And peace insues

Calmness

I’m barely aware of the day.

two days floated by

I’m now sitting barely aware of the time I lost.

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Have you ever saw something in someone you related to so much you couldn’t begin to understand how?

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I leave my IM programs on when I’m not at my computer, I like getting messages while I’m away, it makes me feel loved.  Almost like an answering machine, you come home and the red light is blinking.  Even if it is only a message saying hello it lets me know people care.  I’m selfish like that, I like, no I crave knowing people care.

 

  

I found an old online haunt of mine, its changed a bit, and I’m suprised after about five years people still remember me.  Its in its new incarnation and a .net now instead of a .com.  I don’t know what inspired me to look for it on google but I did, and I found it.  Nothing to keep me really overly focused I suppose, a log in once every couple of days is good and not overly time consuming, not the way it used to be at least.

Justin and I finally went out to dinner friday for my celebration of being divorced.  I don’t know why, but I love to eat at resteraunts. I can grow bored with fast food, but never with sit down resteraunts.   Justin hates eating out at resteraunts, he always wants me to take it to go, but then it loses all its meaning and I’d rather not do that, why not just have lame ol’ fast food again.  I have no idea what time Justin went to bed, I just know he’s been following behind me like by two hours.  It pisses me off because it means he doesn’t get up until like almost dinner time.  It is rediculous, he misses his appointments for this asthma study (He’d get money from it if he didn’t miss the appointments) up at his doctors office.  He’s totally slacking and if he slacks I don’t feel motivated at all.

My hair is totally fried, only thing I can do is cut it and let it grow and cut it and let it grow.  I’m sure I’ll be dealing with this mistake for well over a year.  What’s odd is that the under layers of hair are nearly perfect, but the over layers, the ones that are on top and face teh world, are a mess.  Dry, frizzy, can’t brush through it at all.  Its a catastrophe for sure.  I suppose this only means one thing, if my best feature is fubared for over a year until it all grows out again, I must get unfat and have a nice body again.

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