another sleepless night

Its happening more and more frequently. I will be up all night, with out being manic. Its a side affect of depression as well and I have been down.

Tonight I have searched as much as I can for Jackie online. I did find one of her sisters and thankfully I got an email off. Im going to stop by her parents house, or where her parents used to live last time I knew of soon. She’s still in India I think and with the earthquake Im very concerned. I did just find out about the earthquake Friday(yesterday). I dont keep up with the news that often and its getting really bad that this earthquake happend on Tuesday and I just found out.

Im tired but still cant sleep… I have things like going to my dad’s in San Diego this weekend and I really dont know how IM going to get up to do much… Im tired of feeling this way, tired of not being able to change it, or slowly changing it. Im tired of this job crap and worrying about money and things of that sort…

I did have something I was feeling really wanting to talk about but well now its too late. I’m to tired to think and well… Yeah that’s all night all.