Emotional Hurt

I havent written about how I feel recently.

In all honestly I feel like shit. Out and Out teary.

Problems with my LARP group. Big Conclave about to happen called ICC. this is where LARP’ers in my club all over the country get together and play the games. Not just country mind you but the world. It the Clubs International Conclabe Convention… a huge 4 day event.

I have been looking forward to it for about 6 months. I now might not get to go because another member of my local game started harrassing me. I filed a complaint with my local chapter coordinator, because Im the one requestion arbitration Im not allowed to go to any events where this person might be. This does inlclude ICC. If the bully decides to sit down after ICC and talk it out I miss ICC. I have to wait for things to be OK on his terms.. HIS terms…

This larp thing is actually turning into such crap I’d rather deal with all the stupid crap I put up with in high school. At least if I started getting harrassed by a guy at school he would get suspended immidiatly.. Girl’s harrassing me I can deal with, but a guy harrassing me just to make me feel beneath him… I can not. I am a very strong woman (rather I feel strongly about being a woman and having all my rights) and I just cant handle a man thinking he can push me around just because everyone else seems to think its ok.

If I miss ICC because of this, I am officially leaving the Cam and not returning. I have to find better ways of being happy.

Now excuse me I need to do the tears thing again because suddenly Im not able to control my emotions.