Happy Birthday to me…

Well I have to say I had an awesome weekend. Cassandra came up from Orange County and spent the weekend with me. We went out to the stables and rode horses for the afternoon and she turned out to be a much better rider than my mom expected. Got sunburnt, then went to the club that night. Went out to the local club, nothing extra special, got drunk, danced, had a bit of fun.

Oh! To make Sat. night even better, Damien Douglas, the friend who blew me off when I called him.. Ran into him at the club, he recognized me said hello was super friendly apologized for blowing me off, explained that his girlfriend was there and was giving him trouble. That totally made my whole night, it was cool seeing Damien being cool with me again.

Anyhow tonight Dapres took me to dinner and a movie for my birthday, brought me roses and balloons. Made me smile for sure, it seems odd but ok so now Im 26, yet I dont feel like I should be, nor does it seem like that big a deal..

I miss Justin like crazy. I barely got to speak to him at all this weekend, and despite spending a lot of time on the phone, I was hoping he’d phone me or rather talk to me tonight, ::sighs:: I really wish I could just see him.

Oh, he did irk me a lot today though. But he claims he just gets stubborn on the phone but in person he’s much more of a push over.. Good, he better be, especially on the topic of his health.

I worry though, what if Justin never does work at getting improved health so he can work, and what not. I know that it seems shallow, but I cant stay with someone who’s not willing to try and improve life. God, I do like so much about Justin though, he’s so honest and he makes me laugh a lot, but Im also so stuck up its not funny. His friends are going to hate me I just know it, and I already know I dont like one of them, because she swears all the time. I know I swear a lot when Im angry, but I dont really do it nearly as much as her, and I found it so vulgar. Blah, Im a social elitist snob, and I know I could change it, but I honestly dont want to. ::sighs::

Blah, I miss Justin and really feel whiney right not about not getting to talk to him before bed.

I do have to get going though its late and I have class tomorrow and an interview! Woohoo!