Honestly I dont care about that..

Im so tired of hearing people tell me how obsessed Laura is about me and about Jordan. We broke up, she is glad of that Im sure, but why obsess if he’s not over me or not. Today I talked to him and he told me he was, and Im taking his word for it. Yes it bothers me only because I gave my heart to him. But that’s what happens when you give your heart to someone who’s younger and does not understand the value of it. Things happen and one must move on.

Brandon was suppose to call tonight or tomorrow… He didnt call tonight. I know that might ease Jason’s heart a bit. I think he’s falling for me pretty hard, or rather he has but yet is terrified that he has. I cant go into the topic of him here though, Im sorry. I like him and respect him a great deal and want to keep our friendship out of the eyes of so many that see this. Brandon on the other hand I can only hope will call and we will go out tomorrow, I could really use a night out to get my mind off the crap Im going through over Pacbell and their disability assistant program. Im going to send information to Cassandra and she’s going to set up a resume for me. She’s pretty good at making the most regular tasks seem important. Ohh wow, Im just meandering topics tonight when I know I really have one thing on my mind… ::huggles to all:: I’m sorry to cut you all short but I must go and write about it to get my mind clear….