Interesting….

I feel guilty, I started another OD so that some things I want to write I can with out EVERYONE I know reading it. I feel guilty because it seems I must hide my feelings from people that matter to me. But if OD was to teach me anything it is this: Not everyone has to know all of your feelings all of the time. Some of my feelings are simply me trying to figure things out, and some people have been hurt because they took it personally.

So my other diary will remain unknown to others. Doesnt mean I will not feel guilty over it.

I found out about my fish tank dream. I talked to my therapist about it and he tells me that it represents my past emotions and my anxiety about them. In my next dream about them Im suppose to leave them behind me. Not to let it bother me that the tank is behind me. I dont have that many dreams over them, but the next time I will try.

Im depressed right now and Im not really sure of the why behind it. I have a lot of crap going on in my life and that is probably why.

Sad I feel as if I have nothing to say right now,