Its not you, its me..

God! Those have to be like the worst words you can ever be told. Its so cliche. How do you tell a person that? Its so not true. If it was you then you would fix it if you still loved that person. …..

So my Its not you, its me thing happened last night. Alex and I got in this stupid fight over our RP site characters… and then it so went from there. Our fights are always over something so lame like that and always end up way personal. In this break up but not really actually breaking up, but did break up fight I got teh its not you, its me line. I could not believe it. I even said to him how cliche that was. He seemed suprised… like he’s never known anyone to have used it. Im sure he didnt think that it was a cliched line but well it hurt really bad.

As I was sitting there quiet thinking to myself what did I do, Alex suddenly as if reading my mind says that I didnt do anything wrong and not to blame myself. He knows me too well. I like that he knows me so well though. It makes the making up from a fight better too.

After the fight we talked for a few hours, which is always good. I love being able to here the smile return to his voice. It changes him completely. We remeniced a little last night too. Alex was suprised to find that I found our day at Disneyland in the rain, getting soaked and cold one of the most romantic days Ive ever had. I dont know why he was so suprised, after all the rain was the perfect excuse to get close to each other and snuggle to keep warm. The park lost most of its lines during the rain so instead of Disneyland being the land of lines, it was the land of no lines and yellow poncho people. YELLOW PEOPLE! a small inside joke between Alex and I… We are not, or have not ever been, or will not ever become a yellow people. Remenicing always does the heart good.

Alex if you did start reading this again, I love you very much and you know exactly why I think you are so special to me.