Of the past

I dream a lot of Justin Frost. He was my very first crush in childhood that went on and off since then until about my Junior year in High School.

I can not understand why I dream about him. I never dream of him as my lover, or as a boyfriend or anything, but he appears in my dreams randomly. The most recent dream I was for some odd reason at my middle school and needed to call my grandmother to pick me up. I couldnt find anyone in the office to allow me to use the phone so I go back outside to look for a payphone. Well I never find one (good because the school didnt actually have one in life either). But as Im standing in front of the parking lot, Justin Frost tells me to drive this huge old truck. I get in start it up and honk the horn motion for him to get in. He shakes his head and says dont worry I’ll pick it up later. So off I go. Now as ALL cars I drive in my dreams it never works in the manner it should, this time it has no breaks, rather very poor breaks and it doesnt stop quick enough. So as I approach a traffic light I get in the turn lane and start to stop. I dont and I flip this car in front of me back over front. The police sitting at the corner does nothing so I continue on my way home… of course my Justin in real life is waking me up at this time…

So as Justin rolls over in bed causing me to wake up I decide I need to see if I can get a hold of Justin Frost, to get him out of my system or something. Try looking online for his parents number, no such luck, no Frost’s in HB anymore. I do find a Justin Frost in Irvine, neither number is answered. Blah, so I call my friend Gina, old high school friend who knew Justin F. and I talk to her for over an hour, we catch up, barely mention Justin, but talk about what we are up to. She seems to be doing good, I think, although I am not to sure considering she’s now got a second daughter, not married, although engaged, and living in the same townhouse complex as her mother. She didnt move to far from home.. heh.

Sometimes I think I’ve been lucky to be able to experience so much in life. I’ve picked up and moved to Missouri on my own for love, restarted my life and it seems to be working. I’ve lived tons of places and have experienced much.

To bad Jackie never stayed my friend to see if I’d ever mature… guess what I did. :: smiles ::

I don’t think I miss Jackie’s friendship anymore, I dont think Im angry at how she dropped our friendship either. I’ve learned to feel glad that despite not having any of my friends from high school keep in touch on a regular basis, I’ve been able to branch out and meet different people.

I know that if I had kept all those friendship’s from HS, that I would never have needed to find a place to live in OC. and I never would have met Cassandra, who has turned out to be one of my favorite friends ever. She understands me so its good.

Heh, speaking of which Cassandra if you read this plan to visit 🙂 Also how close are you to getting your Paralegal Certification stuff so you can help me divorce that asshole Ryan so that I can marry Justin? ;P

Ok, I’ve got an interview with this Temp Agency who is hiring for Time Warner Cable out here and I need to get ready. Good morning and have a good day all.