Patience where can I find myself some patience..

Because Im seriously in need of it. Blarg, things are so just darn unfair and utterly confusing. I was talking to Robert last night and we were talking about things that make him skittish. He knows or so I keep telling him I am not pushing for a relationship with him, I enjoy having him as a friend. But yet when I was quiet last night thinking on the fact he told me that if Im patient then I’ll get my chance when he’s ready. Which is fine becasue I like to stop and think on that. It makes me smile. But well when he asked why I got so quiet I was like Im just thinking and he was like ohh about what. I told him that because Im usually a really blunt person and I say what I say with out thinking and that with him if I said what I wanted to say he’d get super skittish and freak out.

Well he quickly assumed I was meaning that I would say I love you to him. Um.. well like him I do but no Im not ready to say that to anyone for awhile. But it made me think on the fact he assumed thats what I wanted to say. Ive got this feeling that he cares way more for me then he is letting on, which is something I wanted to say to him last night. Kinda make him see it and step into facing a fear of getting hurt. Blah but I didnt. That would make him skittish. Ok so anyways I was thinking as most females do, reading in between the lines… I was thinking if he so quickly jumped to assume that I wanted to say those “three little words” that maybe yeah he might be thinking he might have fallen for me in that manner? Yes, no? Yeah that’s what I thought.

So anyways I’d like life to be fair and let me be the one to get the good guy.. ohh that and let him stay the good guy…

One last thing, Brittany Spear’s new commercial… way over hyped its not that big a deal.. nothing her ass hasnt dont a million times on a stage before… shake her pushed up bra boobs and sing. Later…