Privacy

I have decided that keeping your relationship out of other people’s ears is the best thing for the relationship. Other people can cause one of the people in the relationship to question the other person’s intent. I have recently discoverd Byron told Joey that I said I would move to Australia to be with Byron. Causing Joey to think that it ment recently. When I would not do so…… not anymore. I would have at one time, but not now, not ever I dont think. First of all if, and that if is not going to happen ever, if Byron and I get back together Byron would ahve to move here. I am the more finacially stable one, with the better job and what not. Why would I offer to move when he could not afford us both…. ::snorts:: I would have when we were together but not now….

Joey got all concerned and I basically said that the talking about the “us” with my ex could not happen….. Or it would never work out, and Joey is the one person I want it to work out with. I’ll wait the four years of college that he has to go through before moving here… Yus, I will wait.

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I went to my first massive, outdoor Rave last night and I have to admit… Buying E at the Rave sucks… my first pill was not E it was like lame if it was… so I spent another $20 to get E which ended up having speed in it too. Which I usually dont think I would mind except I took the second one at like 2am…. made for lousy sleep when I finally went to bed. Also this morning I had killer stomach ache and my stomach would not allow me to eat all day with out pains and a quick bathroom trip. Speed used to do that to me for 3 days after, when I used to take it straight when I swallowed it not sniffed it. Its the main reason I quit using it cuz it like messed up my eating… and I like to eat.

But the rave was much fun and I think if they have a 5th annual one I’ll go back next year. Though I’ll take a large group of peeps. More fun that way.

Its way late and I did not get good sleep because of last nights fun…..