Restless

Tax day. Pay your taxes.

I’m feeling kind of restless. Unhappy with myself, unhappy with my situation in life..

I don’t really know what to do about it. Hell I sometimes think I deserve all of it.

Recently my family on my mom’s side has told me they always thought I was just a bad kid. Really like just a bad kid who did things to be bad on purpose. I don’t remember this, all I remember was wishing someone cared about me enough to just fucking listen. I can’t believe my family actually thought I was a bad person. Especially compared to my cousin who all she did was lie. My family even says they knew she was lying but like never said anythign because my grandmother wouldn’t accept it.

But they sure as hell could try to beat the bad out of me.