Running away

Now its my turn… or rather now I want to run away. Ohh the mess I think I might have made of it all. Blah I should never have opened up and liked someone so unavailable to me. I want to scream out loud at my stupidity. I want to run and never face the fact Im just going to get my heart completely broken. I want to hate him, only because I cant hate myself for being so completely foolish. But I cant because he’s so damn wonderful.

So do I cry and move away and let him be?

I want to run to stop to avoid the risk of getting hurt. If I run now I dont risk anything…. except its too late.. I fall more every day.

Blah… Im terrified of getting my heart hurt.

I have this feeling of fleeing, stop talking to him, stop thinking of him…. Just stop… if I stop the hurt wont come..