Sam

Ok, so one thing I have noticed that I do as part of my mood disorder is probably being in love with the idea of love. I feel I am addicted to infatuations.

Sam is my current addiction.

I don’t know where to begin with him or explanation of him.

I am married, but not to Sam. I want to make it very clear that I love my husband very very much. But as we’ve been together almost 9 years of which 2 we have been married, the new feeling of a new love is gone. That part where you can’t just get enough of each other, or learn enough about each other. It is just not there anymore. While its great that we are so comfortable with each other and know each other so well that we can understand each others moods (a big deal in my husbands case of knowing and reading mine), that “honeymoon” type feeling in the relationship isn’t there.

Aka the infatuation.

This is where Sam comes in.

For now I’m going to leave this here. More thinking and writing on it later.