Spring feelings..

I know I don’t write here often anymore but I don’t have a place to express how I feel safely other than here.  So I’m here.
Friend of mine who has been with his gf for 10 years (only married last fall) they are breaking up.  With out divorce they and not living apart they are just breaking up.  I find this ackward.  He totally deserves his freedom after all she told a wopper of a lie and went into the marriage with the lie, and the subject of the lie he always tolerated because he loved her.. so to find it was a lie pretty much pissed him off.  So I get this but to hear a phone call between t hem is strange.. still saying I love you, still saying I miss you.. I know he is probably just being nice but it seems a desperate way for her to hold on to him.  It makes me feel strange as I know I’ve done things just to keep a guy before and well it makes me feel ackward to see someone else doing it.

My own feelings recently.  I love my husband always do but I am need of romance.. I usually am when I get slightly hypomanic.

My problem is my husband lets me have friends I am flirty with, it is enough for me to have flirtations that never get physical.  Well that’s not the problem the problem is that well I have a friend that I am close to that I would not mind being more flirty with but I don’t dare step on toes and ruin a good friendship.. I know its my hypomania so I’ve been really good and just being my normal flirt level self.

So I’m here to whine that I want to be more flirty but yet am not because I’m being smart.

*shrugs*

If my husband was more romantic this wouldn’t be an issue.