They continue..

More crazy dreams.

Two nights ago it was Lauren/Dapres. Now both these people are two seperately completely different friends of mine. Lauren was the good friend that was there for me during the break up with Byron, we tried dating but we ended up platonic friends, which in the long run worked out better for us. I feel he’s likely the best male friend I’ve ever made, like as a person. Dapres is my first serious boyfriend ever, still friends with him, he’s still close to my family.. that kind of stuff.

So the dream begins with me hanging out with Lauren, I’m not sure what we are doing but Im apparently visiting California. He pickes me up at my mom’s house and we go back to the LA area (mind you reality my mom lives like 5 hours from LA). So we are doing something and it has to do with being on the freeway, and I had to get out for a moment. Lauren was going to go around the block (yea I know freeways dont have blocks) and pick me up again, but he doesn’t, he plays games with me, comes around once then drives off. Now my mind realizes Lauren is my good trusting friend and won’t leave me in LA with no car to get home, and there is no way Im calling my parents because they will just say I told you so (This is where it starts to change.)

In the end I did have to call my mom, and she and my stepdad and brothers come out, pick me and some people up and we head home (now it being a bit more true to realitly its a long drive home so my stepdad is angry). We get home and its late, like 1am late. I notice some guys arriving home next door and I ask what they had been doing tonight and they tell me they went to this party and hung out with some girl (who in my dream was a friend of mine) I find out Dapres had been with her (this is Lauren transformed now) and I get pissed, it figures Dapres would be so unreliable and just bounce off with out me. He’s always done that.

Of course like an hour after hanging out in front of the yard Dapres shows up, and I don’t get to yell at him because this is where I wake up.

Now I understand why Lauren was represented as Dapres inthe begining of the dream, as Dapres was in life always unreliable, he’d say he’d be there to pick me up and was on his way and three hours later Im still watching a movie with my mom.. our entire freaking relationship was like that, he’s horrid with it. When I quit the phone company and he tried to see if we could date again I told him unless he can prove himself reliable it was not likely.. he never did. At the begining of the dream Lauren was the person I could depend on and it changed to Dapres because of the sudden un Lauren like behavior, as Lauren would NEVER do that shit. Damn Lauren went to a Rave with me, let me wander off to play (at the time I was doing X in my life) and despite not having the greatest of times let me play until dawn, found me and like the good friend he was got me home safely. Now Lauren told me he’d never rave with me again, that he did have fun, but he didn’t realize I’d want to stay until like 5am, and he couldn’t do that for so long as he didn’t do drugs. At the time it caused a slight tiff, but we made up and stayed friends, he never did rave with me again though 🙂 But Lauren would never leave me, Dapres would, and has done so, much to my dismay.

But what is wierd is the fact I dreamt of both, the stable and unstable friend, and in the end it turned out that I had chosen the unstable one, or the dream did or what not. I have NOOO clue what my mind was trying to work out.. then again it could just be telling me my emotions are growing instable because since I’ve been sick i’ve not taken my Lithium..

I’ll start on it again tonight.

Amazing things dreams can show us if we just learn to think about them eh?