Two in one day…

Its been awhile since Ive written twice in a day. Style change…. the deep blue and ivory colors got old, or rather I wanted to be more feminine, now it looks out right little girlish. At least it isnt pink, it could be pink…..

I think Ive lost my poetic feel to my writing, and that bothers me. Its as if Im not getting deep enough inside my heart or my head to write how I want. I have had something Ive wanted to write on for some time. Ive noticed quite a few people I know are religious. Then I learn another person is, and it seems odd. Just that some people dont seem teh type to really be religious. Not that its bad or anything, just unexpected.

Im not religious at all. I think it has to deal with being able to have blind faith in something. Something I am incapable of doing. That and I find the regligions I know anything about comletely illogical. Yes this includes all the types of Christianity, be it Catholic, mormon, baptist… if you believe in Christ as your savior your christian. To me it makes no sense. Whats even harder is that Christians push so much, Im baptized Christian, but Im open to the idea, that there is a possiblity that there might not be anything after death. That’s it. And Christians, not all of them mind you, but a lot of them can not just stop, and consider the possiblity. Im not asking them to stop believing in god, but just consider, that after life we may just be dead. And if we are then what will it matter, we wont even know anyways.

The illogical part of Christianity is that Jesus’s teachings say to love God first then love one another. Which is fine, its a good teaching, its one that shoudl be focused on more, but almost all religions teach this in some form or another. Be good to yourself, be a good person to others…ect. The one thing that bothers me about Christanity is that God, is a loving and forgiving god. That he’s this caring and loving diety. Oh but wait, dont believe in me and you’ll go to hell. EEP! Well if your so understanding and forgiving, you would understand that some people need more proof than blind faith. Fear him, but yet he loves you……

I dont know, the idea of God is strange, because if he really did love us and what not, why would he allow certain things to continue? Would you allow your children to kill each other? No, you would intervene and settle the arguement. Seems the idea of God to me is just to ease the fear humans have over something they can not control. Death. Instinctually we are afraid of death. The idea of death may not fear you intellectually, but instinctually it is something we all fear. Religion is just another way we are civilized, to prevent chaos. For if there really is no purpose to life, and there is nothing after death, why should anyone follow laws? People need something to believe in. No matter what it is we need it to feel like our life has some king of value, a purpose…. Other wise we would either all fall to severe depression, or lawlessness. It would be chaos not a society.

Im going to stop rambling here… that’s a lot to think on for one night.