Two months

I had a dream last night that I got something in the mail about Joey’s letter.  At first I thought it was a reply, but then I realized it was my own letter returned.  I was devestated.

Does air mail from other countries even get returned if someone says "Return to Sender" on it?  Does any mail anymore?

Wow, I can’t believe things with Joey fell apart that much.

I don’t go to NWT anymore, so I can’t even see if he pops in there to say hi.

My heart is heavy today as I woke from that dream and it caused me to remember the absence of a reply.

I could call the phone number if my damn telephone let me make international calls (I don’t know why in bloody hell it doesn’t let me), I consider picking up a prepaid calling card to drop a call in on the number.. just to check to see if it is really where his parents still live.

God, does that seem stalker like?

I hope not, its not that Im trying to get him to love me or anything. Just pick up our friendship.

I’m lame, I know.   I miss him.  I learned a lot about myself because of him.

He’s said the one thing in my life that gave me any sense of real value of myself.  For that I will never forget him.

*HUGS* TOTAL!

give Jenn more *HUGS*