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I just wanted to post just to post. I can feel the tension with my shared roommate. I told her off yesterday.. The plan was to stay at boyfriends all weekend but he had other plans apparently and I finally told him I didnt want to do this anymore. Instead of the main girlfriend, I feel like the side piece and I can’t handle that mentally right now. No one deserves that kind of treatment after four years.
I have decided to go ahead and plunge forward getting any kind of financial assistance for housing right now. I need my own place and one preferably without him. I can no longer handle the stressors of this house hold. If I literally have to be this girls mama in an independent living situation, then I’m done. I don’t have kids dont want kids. Don’t even want the 49 year old man child as a boyfriend. Why is it my job ? She ignores me when Im home either at the guys house or asleep so why she can’t leave me the fuck alone? There has been so much anger burning through me the past couple days that it literally scares me I might take a swing at this girl.
Her touching and taking my calvin klein stuff really pissed me off.
We have a shared room we both pay rent to stay in. I pay 620 to live here. She decides she wants a pet and brings home a bunny rabbit. She didnt even think of asking me if it was ok bc I live in the same damn room. I have nothing against animals but I dont want to smell anything unholy in my room. When I came home, the cage was blocking the closet and there was already poop on the floor. I was so livid.
Come to find out she was afraid to tell me so she went over my head to the house mother. She then said she could keep it for a week but had to ask me and well of course she didnt.
Ive been fighting with the house mother since before this starting and I think its just time for me to leave. When she tells me that its okay for her to pull that bullshit she does ..
Ill be at boyfriends house she calls me at 930.. oh the guys next door were talking crap about you and brought your boyfriend into it. I said you literally called me at 930 to tell me this dumb *** ****?? Shes dont it a couple times too.
When she got the rabbit, she said you’re going to kill me. If thats the first thing out of your mouth then why did you do it? I blocked her from my phone finally but told her never to call me less someone was dying or bleeding. When she called me the last time two days ago, she said the house mother wanted to know why one of the guys left… I do not frigging no. Why are you calling me about dumb shit again? She said the house mother was there. I called the house mother she said she wasnt even any where near the house. I called her back and cussed her out.. That day we came back to the house got my stuff for the weekend and came home. Before I left out the door I told her f*** *** off and I screamed and I was even scared of my damn self.
I usually have a good standing with the house mother but now shes ignoring. I dont blame her. But I am not this girls mother. This is an independent living situation. Like I said when I’m home, she ignores me. When Im gone, I’m not even gone an hour before she calls me. Over dumb shit. I dont call her when she is out the door so wtf? I literally think shes fucking with me.
I will eventually replace my calvin klein socks even though that bitch needs too.
I really think its time for me to have my own place. I dont want to live here anymore.