Been a while..

It’s been a little while since I last wrote. I went home for the weekend and have been pretty busy (and very lazy at times). My mom and I continue to rub each other the wrong way. My dad and I are pretty cool with each other as usual. I went to Alex’s house on friday night and we chilled and watched wrestling (as usual). He was being incredibly sweet. He was telling me he loved me and holding me and cuddling with me. I don’t know about you but cuddling is the best thing in the world to me. He likes to cuddle so it works out. We had a quickie and when we finished he was like, "Did you finish? Are you good?" and I’m like aww he cares again. So yea that was nice. Then Saturday I got my hair cut really short again and on Saturday night I went to see Bye Bye Birdie performed by the cast I used to perform with. It was very bittersweet. I walked in the theater and was like, "I miss the theater. I miss the family-like closeness. I miss acting and being a part of something so spectacular." And then seeing my friends who were little juniors when I graduated grow into seniors about ready to head to college. It made me tear up seeing how far we’ve all been and remembering how much we’ve all been through together, The cast is my second family and I love all of them. I am the mother of most of the cast figures lol. The amount of hugs and "Mommy!" screams I received just warmed. My heart. I missed them all so much. Then after the show while the cast was having their end of the year cast party me and a few other alums were talking to our director and mentor Mr. Otis. He is a bat-shit crazy old man. He is a genius and incredibly scary while at the same time being a teddy bear. Once you’ve worked under Otis you will never be the same again. He just creates such and impact on your life and all for the better. Then afterwards the alums went to a diner to chill and catch up for a bit. It was just a really nice night.

I was with one of my best friends Alicia. I missed her so much and it sucks that we never see each other because she’s all the way in Maryland. I missed her a lot. 

I was with Alex the entire night too. We were bf/gf for the weekend and it was perfect. We were kissing and just being together like we used to. When we’re together we’re the perfect couple. But like put the distance between us and everything falls apart.

OH and I saw my ex-bf Kenny at the play too. We avoided making eye-contact all night. It was awesome. 

Ok well im tired im gunna try and get some sort of sleep. Goodnight OpenDiary

*Sandra*