Hard…but getting easier

Was hanging out with Daniel tonight. We were basically laying in my bed cuddling and joking and fooling around. I really like him. A lot.

We were listening to some music on his phone (through the speakers) and I put his phone in my back pocket so we could still hear it and no one had to hold it and it wouldn’t get lost under us on the bed or something. So the song cuts off and another song starts playing and the I realize, "Oh shit thats his ring tone!" so in my haste I accidentally push the end button and hang up on his girlfriend. I swear it was an accident. So yea…I was laying next to him while he talked on the phone to his girlfriend. It was hard to hear him say stuff like, "I miss you" and "I love you" but I pulled through it. It wasn’t as hard as the first time. I guess because I understand his situation kind of. I mean I was in his shoes like 3 months ago. 

I’m sure he still loves her.

But, theres no doubt he likes me. 

Will he leave her for me. Probably not.

But, Hey, a girl can dream right?

I gave this kid my heart. It rests in his hands. I hope he takes care of it. I hope he doesn’t break it and shatter it like Eric did. I trust him. I trust him with everything. He’s the only guy I’m completely comfortable with picking me up. I told him everything about me. Well, almost. Whatever he doesn’t know it is just because I haven’t thought to tell him.

I don’t want to hide anything from him. I want to be completely honest with him.

Hearing him on the phone with his girlfriend…was hard…but at the same time it was easier. I mean when he leaves to go talk to her…in my head he’s saying things that are much harder for me to hear. At least when he’s with me I know for sure what he is saying. But, at the same time it’s kind of hard because I’m actually hearing it. But, I’m ok. 

Honestly, I’m ok. I didn’t think I would be but I am. I know he likes me. 

I go sleep. Night.

*Sandra*