I need to get my shit together like now

Ill do the JaSurMos tomorrow when I have the energy to do it or maybe later just right now I want to talk. 

Mike texted me and of course I answered. Why wouldn’t I? Anyway we’ve just been talking about stuff and then he was like I need to talk to you when you get back. So I’m like why dont you just text me I don’t want to wit until thursday to find out (cuz apparently we’re hanging out on Thruday…I’m going to cancel i guess). So he still hasn’t told me and now he wants me to call him…I don’t want to because I know if we talk I’ll just get all hooked on him again and I don’t need that. Stupid controlling bastard knows how to get into my head and make me want to do things I know I shouldn’t like talk to him for example. *sigh* I need Eric…he always talked sense into me but I think he’s mad at me or something. Everytime Mike texts me and we talk for a while I’m like laughing and having fun and I really enjoy myself you know..I almost forget what he used to do to me..how he used to make me feel like shit.

Maybe hes changed though. Maybe he isn’t controlling anymore. I mean he has a kid now maybe he grew up a little and realized that what he was doing is wrong…I think hes going to ask me out. Maybe I’ll go out with him a few times. Whats the worse that can happen right? I mean he just seems so sweet and nice and caring…

I’m going to go text Eric…this is getting really bad…write more later

 *Sandra*