Letters

 

Day 1 — Your oldest friend

 

Dear Oldest Friend,
I miss you. I know we live across an ocean from each other but I do think about you. I always wonder how your amazing life in Italy is going. Maybe I’ll get back in touch with you soon but I’m always afraid to. We shared that night two years ago when I was your first kiss from a girl. We shared that secret smile for the rest of the day at the beach after that. I think if we had lived closer we would have something special but I guess it won’t ever be. I miss you and thanks for being my friend. Grazie bella! 

 

Day 2 — Your crush / significant other

 

Dear Crush,
I don’t know whether you like me or not. I know you did at one point but then you dropped me so suddenly. I miss our nights together. Everyday when we hang out I want to tell you how I feel but I’m afraid of telling you and making every worse…or just all out pushing you away. You’re my best friend and I love spending time with you but it seems like you don’t even want to just hang out with me anymore. Maybe one day you’ll realize you have a girl in front of you ready and willing to be with you. But, I will respect your wishes but always know I will always care about you a little more than I should

 

Day 3 — Your parents

 

Dear Mom and Dad,
Mom- I hate you. With all of my heart and soul I hate you. You have always brought me down and told me I will never amount to anything more and a whore. I live with a low as fuck self esteem because of you. I look in the mirror and hear your voice telling me to look pretty. You would tell me I’m a pretty whore so at least I’m good for something. I hate you and I hate everything that you have done to me. I blamed my fucked up mentality partially on you.
Dad- I love you and I dont know what I would do without you. You were and are always there when mom made me cry. Our long 2-3 hour walks every night were my refuge and I have amazing calves. I talked to you about everything even though you didn’t understand much of it. I enjoyed just venting to you about everything. Our long conversations about everything and anything were great. I love you very much.

 

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

 

Dear Cousin,
You are like an older sister to me. I love hanging out with you and I love the crazy shit we get into. I know you always got my back no matter what and I will always appreciate that. Maybe one day I will legitimately win our game. I love you more than anything in the world thanks for always being there for me no matter what. 

 

Day 5 — Your dreams

 

Dear Dreams,
The sleep dreams-thanks you for always enlightening me about what is to come and putting things into perspective for me. Yes, sometimes you do confuse me but most of the time you do really help me out a lot. Thank you.
Hopes and Dreams kind of Dreams- stop changing every damn day. Pick something and stick with it. I’m tired of constantly questioning whether or not I’m doing the right thing with my life or not. 

 

 

Day 6 — A stranger

 

Dear Stranger,
I love meeting and talking to new people. So if I’m a stranger to you come up to me and say hi. I’m very social and friendly. Unless you’re going to try and kill/kidnap me then please stay away. 🙂

 

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/Ex-girlfriend

Dear Chris, 
I don’t even count you as a boyfriend anymore. You taught me that guys are douche bags and to avoid any guys who are willing to leave you for "arm candy." Fuck off. But I will thank you for introducing me to Ivan (even though he left my life too.)

Dear Mike,
You fucked me up so bad. I can never trust anyone again because of you. Yet, when we hung out tonight I ended up having a really nice night. I highly enjoyed spending time with you tonight and want to hang out with you again soon. I know I shouldn’t want to hang out with you again and I know I definitely shouldn’t have hung out with you in the first place. Maybe you have changed. Maybe you’ve grown up and realized girls need to be loved not controlled. Maybe now that you have a daughter you’ve seen the errors of your previous actions. I don’t know how to feel about you. A part of me hates you and a part of me still wants to be with you.

Dear Kenny,
You are a horrible person. You made a bet that you could get in pants within a month of breaking up with Alex. You used me, a vulnerable, broken girl, to win a sick and disgusting bet. The worst part is: y

ou actually won the bet too. I hope you’re happy you douche bag.

Dear Eric,
I know we never legit dated but you and I both felt like we did those last few weeks before winter break. I’ve never felt like that around anyone else but you. Thanks for being my friend and hopefully we will become more again.

Dear Alex,
I know we recently broke up. I also know that over breaks and summer we’ll be together again. I love you with my whole heart. It hard for me to get over you. I hope who ever you’re with now treats you right. Always remember I’m your girl and you’re my man. No one will love you the way I do.

 

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

 

Dear Internet Friend,
You’re fun to flirt with and easy to talk to. We haven’t talked in a while but thats ok. We’ll start talking again soon when my life settles down. I learned a lot from you and hope to learn a lot more. Thanks for all the advice.

 

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

 

Dear Pink,
You’re my idol. I love you and the message you send out to people through your music. Keep it up! 

 

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

 

Dear Jessica,
We’re best friends but we talk rarely. You’ve been in my life for so long I honestly don’t know how I survived my first semester of college without you. I hope you come to my school so it can be like old times. I love you best friend 🙂

 

Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to

 

Dear Annette’s grandfather,
I know we barely talked those few times at Fordham in my broken spanish, but please, watch over Annette. She is one of my "daughters" and I love her. Please be an extra angel on her shoulders and help her during the next couple of tough adolescent years ahead

 

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

 

Dear Mike,
I hate you. You come into my life when I am most vulnerable and you try to take advantage of me. I hate how you make me want to see you when I know I shouldn’t. Get out of my life

 

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

 

Dear Alex,
You might have forgiven me but I’m not sure. It was a stupid mistake. I’m sorry. I’ll get better eventually

 

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

 

Dear Alicia
We’ve been best friends since 4th grade. Now we’re in college and we never talk anymore. Hopefully I’ll see you at the play and we can hang out because I miss you like crazy. I miss Anatomy together. That was honestly the high light of everyday senior year. That and making everything think we’re a couple because we always walked down he hallways holding hands. Love you girl.

 

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

 

Dear Alex,
Can we just get over ourselves, you come to this school, and make out lives easier. I miss you.

 

Day 16 — Someone who’s not in your country

 

Dear Nonna,
I love you but you annoy me. Thanks for calling me a devil child and for telling my mom that I’m useless and lazy. I tried to do work around the house but you told me no and yelled at me. I’m not sure what I should’ve done. Please stop trying to pretend you love me as much as my other cousins when its pretty obvious you don’t like ne because I’m spanish (and prettier than all my cousins combined.)

 

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

 

<p style="font-family: Verdana; “>Dear Emily,
You we my best friend in pre-k. I would love to get in touch with you to find out how you are. Maybe I’ll try and find you on facebook someday.

 

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

 

Dear Super Model Me,
I know you’re in there somewhere with all the confidence in the world. I wish you would shine out a little more often.

 

Day 19 — Someone who pesters your mind — good or bad

 

Dear Eric,
Unfortunately I always somehow think about you. Everything reminds me of you and it bothers me. I always over analyze everything you say and I actually care about what you think of me. Its very disconcerting. Please leave my brain. Please and thanks.

 

Day 20 — The one who broke your heart the hardest

 

Dear Alex,
When I was pregnant and you left…I hated you with every fiber of my soul. But, I know you wont do it again. If you do I’m cutting your balls off.

 

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

 

Dear Someone I judged,
Sorry I judged you. Its hard not to. If I didn’t talk you because of my judgement I’m sorry I’m not usually like that. I try and get past my initial judgement to see the true person within.

 

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance

 

Dear Mike,
It says want to. I do want to give you a second chance. But, I’m not going to. I’m smarter than that.

 

 

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

 

Dear Alex,
You’re kisses make me happy.

 

Day 24 — The person who gave you your favorite memory

 

Too many to count

 

 

Day 25 — The person going through the worst of time

 

Dear Person going through the worst time,
I may or may not know you but either way. You’re strong and you will pull through whatever is holding you back. You got this. I believe in you.

 

Day 26 — The last person with who you made a pinky promise

 

Dear Alex,
I still love you.

 

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

 

Dear Conner,
You were so nice to me. Thanks for making my first day hand shake so memorable. I hope to see you soon lol.

 

 

Day 28 — Someone who changed your life

 

Dear Mike,
As much as I hate you, if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t be who I am today. Neither the good nor the bad qualities I have would exist in me. So in a way thanks for teaching me how to be thick skinned.

 

Day 29 — The person you want tell everything to, but you’re too afraid

 

Dear you,
I’m afraid of pushing you away. I care what you think. I want you to think well o

f me. Please don’t judge me. 

 

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Reflection,
Why aren’t you pretty? Why don’t nice guys like you? Why don’t I like you? Please just go away.

*Sandra*