A response.

To the notes that I got on my last entry. I know that he is over seas. Just because he is in another country doesn’t mean that he is extremely busy. Every time I have talked to him I’ve heard about his ridiculously light courseload. He was supposed to have an internship, but doesn’t, and if he is busy, then he is busy hanging out with his friends. I really don’t think that an e-mail is alot to ask. I don’t think that it is so hard for him to just write me a quick reply when he checks his e-mail. Somehow I don’t think that is irrational. I know that some people do have alot to do. I understand that Darrell works all the time and is not often home. I know some people don’t get the chance to write extensive e-mails and make expensive long distance phone calls. I’m not asking for much. I know I more than likely won’t hear anything from him until after his parents leave on the 12th, but you know, it would have been nice to hear from him before then. I didn’t get upset when he went off on trips and couldn’t e-mail or call me, I don’t get angry that I can’t talk to him more than once ot twice a week, all I want is a little recognition. I want a response. I want him to say I miss you too. Thats all I ask! Why is that so terrible? I haven’t seen him more than 2 months, and I don’t even get an e-mail? I haven’t spoken to him since Sunday and I haven’t gotten an e-mail from him in almost 3 weeks. Maybe I wouldn’t be so upset if I hadn’t e-mail him 5 times since he last e-mailed me. I feel like I’m sending e-mail to noone. I try and try and try! And it’s not like my life isn’t at all busy, but somehow, I still find time to e-mail him, you know, those 2 minutes out of my day are so hard to spare. I don’t know why everyone seems to think that it’s fine to ignore the mail I send him, but I don’t. It bothers me and you all telling me that “he’s busy” doesn’t make me feel better because I don’t think that it’s too much to ask. Until I hear from him that he was too busy to send me a short e-mail telling me that hes alright, then I gues I’ll have to believe that that is the reason that he hasn’t written me. I just feel neglected, and I feel like if he can’t find a minute to e-mail me then I must not be important enough to him to take up a minute of his day. And maybe I’m over reacting, and I know I’m PMS-ing, but I don’t care if that is why, I feel like crap and I was in tears for almost an hour this morning because of it. I miss him, and it feels like he doesn’t care, and I feel like you people are making up excuses out of the air, or telling me the reasons why you can’t get in touch with the people you love, which has nothing to do with us. Yes I forget things sometimes, but I don’t forget to e-mail him for 3 weeks. Yes I am busy, but I am not so extremely busy for 3 weeks that I can’t e-mail him. I feel like I’m waiting by the phone for a call that is just never comming. I know you all mean well, but I didn’t write here to ask for your opinion of what must be going on in my boyfriend’s head. Maybe I wrote this so that someone might write a note saying that I’m right, and that I have every right to be upset that I haven’t heard from him. But whatever the reason I wrote that entry for, I didn’t need people telling me he’s busy, get over it. I won’t get over it! If I want to be upset, I’ll damn well be upset! I haven’t seen my boyfriend in 2 months 1 week and 3 days, and all I want is a hug, but you can’t get those from acroos the ocean, so I’ll settle for an e-mail, but I can’t get that either. I’m just a little angry, a little depressed, and on a raging PMS spree and I don’t like it when people tell me that what I think is a problem is stupid. I would have liked to hear from him before his parents got there because I won’t even have a chance to hear from him until tuesday, and I got nothing. I just miss him terrinly and all I want is an e-mail! Just an e-mail. I don’t think that’s so bad, and I don’t know why all of you seem to.