Is there something wrong with me?

There has to be. I’m convinced. I haven’t heard from Julien at all since Sunday, and even the I barely spoke to him. I understand that he is busy, but how is it so fucking hard to write and e-mail? I mean, all I want to hear is “Hi I love you,” and I get nothing. I’d even settle for just hi. Did I do something wrong? Is there some reason why my e-mails go unanswered? He comes home in 5 weeks and 2 days. All I want is some acknowledgement that he’s still alive! It just makes me so angry, and so sad, and what can I do about it? Nothing. I tried so many times to call him, but he’s never there so I just gave up. I e-mail him all the time, but I haven’t gotten a reply in weeks. And I know his parents are visiting him, but they just got there yesterday! WHY IS IT SO HARD TO JUST SEND ME AN E-MAIL! I just don’t understand. Does he not want to talk to me? Does he not care anymore? Is he with someone else? I just want to know! Is that reallie too much to ask?

Random note spree….

Seicross

November 8, 2002

-poke- He is busy dear, I have a feeling he’s too overwhemed to think on this side of the ocean. just let that crap go, i don’t think you did anything wrong, actin like that won’t help anything. Just go study and kick that bitch out your dorm.

Dear Kitten, Take it from one who’s seen it all…Julien loves you. He will contact you. But right now, things are hectic. I’m sure when you’re reallie busy you forget some things…not saying he’s forgetting you, just that he might have a ton on his mind. He’ll be home soon. No worries BBF! *big hug* -The Sun in the Sky

Norrington

Julien is on the other side of the pond. You need to just appreciate the fact that he has time to e-mail you at all. I’m an hour away and I still get so busy that I can’t E-mail Dani for a week straight. You will see him in a month, just relax. ~D.