Remembering and Reality

Well I will start writing at least once a week from now on, its was just a hard time.  I mean last entry was from 2 months after I lost my brother..  I need to be strong, and I know I have the help I need for that.  I am still with Sarah the love of my life, we are currently engaged…rock on!!!!  She helps me through the worst of the worst so she deserves the best of my times.  Its kinda weird like it was meant to be, I mean her mom worked with my dad, yet we never met.  Also she got me to get back in school when i was down she lifted me up.  I truely believe my dad sent her from above my angel.  As for today I had a BBQ with Sarah and my mom and it was great, thought alot about my dad and I or my brother and I cooking brats at 2:30 a.m…lol Today was a special day cause for some reason I felt my dads presences, it was a great feeling. Of course I am gonna cry but I will cry til the day I die for him.  Then when were together Ill be as happy as i can be.  I dream of him every night still.  I wouldn’t have it anyother way.  Now for my time now this wedding thing is kinda hard, I mean, I don’t know Diddily Squat about weddings except I have to dance OMG i cant dance and we get cake…lmao.. I just want it to be perfect for sarah for us..  Well I need to go cause im hungry and the bbq is almost over, thank you god for everything, and godbless everyone..

Hamilton D.Lee

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, or not to anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.