Happy birthday to me!

Yep, today is my birthday.  Yay.  I’m sure it will be about as exciting and eventful as any other day.  Oh, well.  So far the day has not gone well.  I had to get up early this morning so I could take Derek to the doctor at 7:50 this morning.  Ugh.  I thought he had croup, but I guess not.  It’s just a cold.  His sinuses are draining into his throat causing him to cough and gag, especially at night when he lays down.  So, he got some medicine.  Then, I come home and get online and check to be sure Matt got paid (ya never know with the military!), and discover I have more charges to my account from a telephone company that I cancelled my account with over a month ago!  So, I spent the next hour + on the phone with them.  It’s starting to piss me off.  I wrote a letter at the end of August to cancel my account (cuz to do so it had to be in writing).  I sent it certified mail, knowing there would be problems.  I was right.  I called on 9-11, to verify it was cancelled, and it hadn’t been.  9-16 I had charges to my account.  9-22 I call to find out why and get a refund.  More charges today, and still no refund.  Now they are saying it will be 7-14 business days.  They better hope I don’t see any more charges and I get my money, cuz otherwise I’m going to be making a trip to base legal to have them “help” straighten this out.  Ugh.

Supposed to be going out to dinner tonight for my birthday, but we are broke.  Especially with the new charges I wasn’t expecting to our account.  Plus, I made a double payment for renters insurance this month and need to make a double payment for one of our credit cards. And, I have to go to the dentist on the 14th, so I have a $50 or so copay for my fillings.   Once again, no birthday present for me.  I’ve gotten used to it.  I got $50 from my grandma that I wanted to actually spend on myself and not bills this year.  Probably won’t be happening.  I can’t remember the last time I got money for my birthday or Christmas that it didn’t go towards bills.  I never get to buy things for myself.

But, I guess I can’t complain too much.  Compared to where we were at financially a few years ago, we are doing well.  No extra money, but at least all the bills get paid. 

Things around here seem to be going well.  I still have a concern about what Matt did while I was in Indiana for that week.  I think he bought beer and was drinking, though he swears he wasn’t.  I found a few beer bottles in a trash bag on trash day that appeared to be buried to be hidden.  But, when I confronted him, he swears they were just ones that had blown into our yard during the hurricane and that he was just cleaning up the yard.  I don’t know.  That was the only “proof” I had that he might have been drinking.  He had no cash while I was gone, and the charges to our checking account from the debit card appear to be exactly what he said they are.  Except he swears he bought milk while I was gone and that the gallon that was in the fridge was the one he bought, at the gas station.  Yet, it looked amazingly similar, including the experation date to the one I bought right before leaving.  Plus, it said it was from Winn-Dixie, where I’d bought the one that was left there.  I don’t know.  It worries me, but if he was, I’ll find out eventually.  Regardless, I took away his debit card again and am authorizing all purchases made by him.  I hate having to do this.  I just want to have a “normal” marriage.  Of course, I’d also like to be able to go out once in awhile and relax and have a drink without having to worry about my husband wanting to drink also.  Or, what would be even better would be if he could enjoy a drink with me.  *sigh*  But, that will never be.  I need some friends I can go out with.  But, even then, I don’t like to drink cuz I don’t want to come home and have him smell it on my breath and have that make him want to drink again.

And, why is it that this entry has turned into bitching and worrying.  It’s my birthday.  I should be happy.  Cuz, as my mom keeps telling me…I’m “almost 30.”  LOL.  I just remind her that means she’s almost 50.

Derek is really starting to amaze me.  He’s started getting into pretend play a lot over the last few weeks.  It’s so cute.  And, his speech is finally starting to take off, though I’m still worried that he’s not where he should be.  But, I’m afraid he’s just far enough they wouldn’t recommend speech therapy anyhow.  I don’t know.  Maybe I’ll call and get him evaluated just to be sure.  I need to discuss it with Matt.  Most of Derek’s speech is just repeating what we say.  He doesn’t talk much on his own, other than a handful of words.

Ok, guess I’ll go now.  Until next time…