Broken Vow

I let my defenses down last night and I fear I made a mistake.

Sometimes I just want to be touched and feel love and even though it’s from someone who I know I’m only partly well not even in love but just care about now it’s better than nothing right?  When we had sex it just felt like "sex" there wasn’t any real emotions there.  I feel awful for initating the incident and now he keeps saying he loves me and trying to touch me.  I find myself just pulling away and knowing it’s my fault.

Tell me her name
I want to know
The way she looks
And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
While I’m here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I let you go
I let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There’s more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes

I’d give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end

I let you go
I let you fly
Now that I know I’m asking why
I let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

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May 10, 2011

You heartbreaker! Nah, jk but I guess it would be your turn to get some lol

I noted you not long ago and you sent me a friend request…I really must remember to note when I’m logged into my other diary! If you want to read any of my stuff look up quite frankly that’s my public diary and I write about all the stuff I’m going through with my husband…very similar to your situation. You’ll get through it though. Just hang on, it gets better.