Past Lives

I don’t think I could write enough words, think enough thoughts, or simply dwell enough on love. True love. Feel it in your bones love.
I watched Eternal Sunshine for the five hundrenth time tonight.
Several nights ago I watched an episode of the X-Files in which Mulder and Scully found out that throughout time they’d been partners, soldiers in the civil war, brother and sister in the 40’s, etc. It made me think a lot. I’ve never really considered past lives, considering I don’t believe in souls.
But it made me think.. what if every time we die we are born again in a different body, with the same people always there. What if?
What if Scott and I were destined to be together in such a way that when we die, I will meet him again and tell him from the start that we’ll end up together. What if I see him in another life when I’m a soldier and he’s a little girl that I bring to safety and will I know that it’s him?

Sometimes that it amazes me how complex love and relationships can be. How we can fight and fight for them, and how the little moments make it all worth it. A look, a touch, the way they say hello when they first wake up in the morning. And how we’ll do it again and again, live through the exquisite pain of love and life and find it and rediscover it over and over.
More importantly, it amazes me that I live such a charmed life as to have that, to have feel it in your bones true love, in my world for ever and ever until I die. And maybe, after that too.
And I still thought that you were going to save me, even after all that.