hmmm

So, yeah. I’m at college. Yeah. Dorm life is at once wonderful and really irritating. I’ve had nights where I cried myself to sleep, and nights where I stayed up till 3 laughing and talking. I try to be social, I really do. It’s just not in my nature. I turn down all sorts of people in the hopes of some solitude. I just left a large group for to write an entry.

I really am a one or two people person. I am. If I had Mr. Eeyom, my two girls, and Lauren for the rest of my life I really think I would be content. However, I am not yet ready for domesticity (sadly). I haven’t lived long enough….I need to be a young adult before I can be an adult. Dammit.

I will enjoy college, no matter what or where. It will be good for me, and I can work towards my goal of majoring in religion and going to vet school. Too bad I couldnt bring along my cadre with me….but, que sera sera.

Apparently.

😛

Outsider

October 2, 2003

You are majoring in religion? Are you religious? I am not at all but I think the study of how the whole idea came about is cool. Though, I am reading The Gospel According To Matthew in English 10. BLECH!

oh, hey, speaking of college, heres your unoffical reading for wellesley: Rolling Stone “the highly charged erotic life of the wellesley woman” 😛 though i completely understand what you mean *hug* i hope things go well. you dont have to be too social. but friends are good. rescue people from a squirrel attack. its a great way to bond. i love you em! (kits minoring in religion, fyi)

stardust;

hope ur having fun at college. xx

one fine day

October 3, 2003

((hugs)) yeah,I can understand your feelings. I know you’ll love college, I think it’ll just take a bit to find your niche. I love you though,and believe me when I say that I would do almost anything to come out there and be with you. yeah.neither of us is ready for domesticity (of course), but neither of us will really ever be the big social scene type, it seems to me. well ((hugs)) again

mess up it

I’m a 1 or 2 people person too lol… I so need my personal space… sometimes even one is too many ha. Take care.

RYN: yeah i’m from ct, plainville… I’ll stop in and read this a couple times… come read mine and leave one :)…deanna….

stars fade.

October 4, 2003

ryn: Yes, it’s true, I’m afraid of vomit.. *sigh* The fear intensifies when I see someone in the act of it, I get freaked out, anxious, I have to leave the room..I talk to my therapist about that stuff and I feel really dumb the entire time. I’ve always had that fear my entire life of being in a group and getting sick like that..I’m a really phobic person. I have a TON of them.

hey, emily. glad to see u seem to be doing pretty well at college. i’m definitely a 1 or 2 people person. large posses r so overrated. i like depth in my relationships. 🙂

October 6, 2003

ryn: Sure, we can chat more..what’s the mailing list for phobics like us?

em, i could TOTALLY have written this. 110%. i feel like an outsider, and ive only been here a few weeks….i miss you guys so much….love always,

ok, so im gonna try this private note thing. tell me what happens with it? im intrigued….

ok….but i can see the note. maybe ill log in as you later, if thats ok with you….but theres a little [p] after my note….wtf? i love you ems….

My boyfriend attended Carleton College, although he transferred shortly after. I attend a college in the Twin Cities so I was at Carleton pretty much every single weekend (pretty good party scene for such a small school). Just curious what dorm you’re living in and such. Hope you’re enjoying the college, interesting people, but they were all too competitive for my taste!