indeeyom

Damn motherfucking bastard shitfaced school tomorrow. Hmph.

I’m okay about it, though. Its weird. I think this is the first end-of-break day in years that I haven’t been a complete mess. I used to cry myself to sleep on the Sunday of the end of break, if I even went to sleep at all. Sometimes I was too upset to sleep. But today….I’m okay. I’m grumpy, and wishing it were still vacation, and all of that….but I’m composed, and un-depressed, and able to smile and live life like I like to. Huh…..cool. *nods*

There are some days where it seems like life might just turn out well after all…..the sort of days that seem like fantasy, like a long-ago unattainable dream, when stuck in the depths of depression. Days when life seems not just livable, not just possible, but good. Days when you feel like you might have done it right so far…..this is one of those days. It’s nice.

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And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn’t know much of love
But it came too soon

And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excited, we’d get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life’s not fair

And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
friends forever