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Whoa….college.
OK, first off, I’m SO GLAD I chose Carleton. I’m so glad I was brave enough to come here….while it may not be a college full of people “exactly like me”, it is an atmosphere where I can explore the different sides of myself without fear: the take-charge side, the shy side, the nerdy side, the emotional side. Lol, playing cards last night at like 12:30, this kid said to me, “You were the bossy one on the playground during recess, weren’t you?? I can TELL!” and I just started laughing, because nothing could have been further from the truth. I cried almost every recess in elementary school. I told him “No, I wasn’t, and then I decided I wanted to move 1000 miles away and start my life over again. So I did.” and he blinked, took it in, then said, “OK, cool” and we moved on. 😀
Classes start tomorrow, and although I am insanely excited about the courses I’m in, I’m really starting to obsess that I won’t wake up in time. I haven’t set my alarm yet since I’ve been here, cause I haven’t needed to, and although I know that it used to wake me up every day back home, I’m still scared. Cause if it doesnt wake me up, then that’s it–I’ll sleep through class. And THAT’S BAD.
I’ve started to really believe that it will work, with Aaron and I. And that’s made this whole thing so so much easier….regardless of where he goes to school, I know that it will take me a very very long time to stop loving him no matter what. And that can be the power behind our relationship staying strong. Plus, he’s looking at Carleton. What more could I ask for? There are zillions of people here who are looking at the next four years apart from their loved ones, and still staying together. I’m just happy with this situation in general. 🙂
So, right. So this is working. And I’m happy. Unfortunately, once classes start it’ll probably all go to shit….*sighs* Whatever, man. I can only do the best I can, and right now, that best is way under my control. So, yeah. I love and miss all you guys from home, and hope that I will see you in December!
*big hugs* YAY!! *is so VERY happy for you* …and being one who obsesses about her alarm not going off…all I can say is that you’re going to make it to class; even if that doesn’t help, it’s the truth. Can’t wait to see you again Much love and *hugs* and stuff sent your way. 🙂
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hey, I’m really glad things are going well for you. Its really great that you found a place where you can explore, and yet feel safe about it at the same time, not many places allow that to everyone. Classes really arent as terrible as they seem at first, I was scared shitless about sleeping through my first ones, especially since my alarm clock never woke me up. But, I pulled it off, and yeah.
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((hugs)) YAY! Carleton sounds awesome:) I’m so happy that you’ve found a place where you can really grow and explore your self. It sounds great, and just like a lot of fun in general. I think that there are many different sides to you (and to everyone for that matter) that are just waiting to be explored, and if you’ve found a place that enables you to do that, that’s awesome:) love you lots!~
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RYN: Thank you, Emily. But if i’ve got my mom to admit that wellesley is right…then bah. You cant convince me any other way 😛 Did you know that a double major of physics and computer sci is insane? oh well. *hugs* i’m glad you think carleton is perfect. i’m glad you’re so happy, and i definately WILL bug you in december. plus, an interesting side note: the person nikki really wants to go out
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with is named Aaron. heh. oh, and just so you know…i slept through one of my classes! *laugh* the prof was really really nice about it though…so even if you do, dont worry about it! LOVE YOU EM! -Jenny
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yay for Carleton! But Reed is way cooler. Sorry. (-: I’m glad to see things are working out for you. Be well.
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umm… i miss you too? heh… glad you are happy, it’s good to feel that way, being happy with your current purpose and position. i think people always return to that state, however briefly, even despite all the times it will feel exactly opposite to that. either the situations change, or your definition of happiness changes to meet the situation. oh, and study hard! p.s. your notes = too kind
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Long distance relationships do work, but I’ve told you that before. Good luck with your classes. x
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Oh wow. That’s wierd that even though we haven’t spoken in forever we are in the exact same boy situation. Where does your boyfriend go to school? Justin goes to Casewestern in Cleveland Ohio and I am still a sophmore in HS in Washington DC.
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>it is an atmosphere where I can explore the different sides of myself without fear< Yeah! That’s part of what I like most about Carleton. In high school, I was stuck in a certain role… here, not only can I start over, but people are so much more accepting of whatever it is I want to explore about myself (as dorky as that sounds..but hey..a dork is definitely a huge part of who I am!) -Lucy
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