Time To Emerge

I took a week off under Mollie’s advisement and I was afraid I was going to fall into laziness and doubt again.  I fell in that trap a little too easily and now I’m finally pulling myself up back to the surface, but its been an ordeal.  It probably had to do with that unsuccessful day of shooting where I screwed up the lighting.  Or the fact that I didn’t have October  planned out.  I didn’t even use my time off wisely, watching movies and day dreaming.  I got a new phone and handed over a wad of cash, which made me even more depressed.

Being lonely and bad thoughts creeping in.

I have to emerge myself in this project or I’m done for.  I shouldn’t be fucking around in my spare time.  I could be editing every chance I get.  I could be practicing with the lighting or planning out October.

No such luck.  I’m being a dickhead.

I need Cher to slap me,

"SNAP OUT OF IT!"

just fucking do it already.