no one and nothing

I’ve got no one to count on. Last night Krystal, Jim and I were supposed to go see Reality Kick for sinco de mayo, and well, Jim didn’t call me for what ever reason, Krystal worked over time, and I was done up for no reason. So I feel really rejected, my parents are going to Mohegan Sun today for my mom’s bday, and I’ve got noone to watch my kids, so Guess who misses out now? Me! I had to call out of work, that means it goes down as an unexcused absent, my best friends didn’t act too much like best friends last night, it makes me wonder if a message was sent to Jim to call me. I doubt it. I keep wondering what I should do right now. I want to give up on everything. Part of me does anyways. And then I just don’t. God knows what i should do….