Our Christmas this year (updated)

This year we probably will have a very sad Christmas. Usually it’s pretty tight, but nothing like this year.

First, we finally got the house in May. We’ve been trying to get the paperwork done so that When something happens to Nancy, we don’t loose it. That means our mortgage payment is about $400 less a month. But then, about a month or so after that, the transmission in our minivan was starting to go. Choices? Either trade it in for a new vehicle, or hope we can afford to go without for a month while we get it fixed and probably have more issues with it later. We bought a new truck, because the van needed to go, and our other truck is getting ready to quit on us. Hopefully we’ll be able to afford another vehicle when the older truck goes.

After the house, and van we figured we’d be alright for a while and we got the bathroom remodeled… But that there??? Cost almost three times what the guy quoted us! (ASS) And we still haven’t got it finished. Three months without a finished bathroom… UGH! Waiting for my father-in-law to get over here to help Marc patch or whatever before they paint it…

Again we figured “Oh, we can get this and this done” Meaning, the cabinet/bookcase in the living room… Well… My uncle is building it for us, and we have the money to the side for it… And we also plan to get the wiring redone. Money on the side for that too…

But out of that money, we had to take out for the water main we needed to replace… turned out the water company said we had a leak in our line when in reality it was at the valve, THEIR VALVE. and because it was in the joint, they assumed it was OUR PART and we did that replacement for NOTHING! And now we’re out another who knows how much. When it comes to bills and money, I leave it up to Marc.

SO! now? Last night our water heater sprung a leak… UGH! Can’t we just have a few months of nothing bad?! We buy the house and slowly one thing after another goes wrong.

Including me cutting my thumb, almost needing stitches… burning it when it was almost healed… and now having cramps for the past three weeks. I’m going to the OB/GYN in about a half hour… Hopefully I won’t be pregnant or have more cysts… Neither I could handle at this point.

We make too much money to get assistance, but not enough to live off of…

Please excuse me while I cry because the shower I had planned for this morning was delayed and canceled when the grandparents were showering and stuff because Nancy had another… “accident” Where she pooped through her diaper & clothes & they had to clean her, him, the shower, everything upstairs…

yeah… With all of that, we can’t get the children any presents. We can’t even afford to go get them much needed socks and underwear at this point. (cry cry cry)

Thanks to the town, we have some thing to give the kids, I have no idea what or how much. But we signed up for the town hall thing, and last week I agreed to be “adopted” by the school.

Marc’s aunt signed up for the town hall thing too, than went shopping for her kids, all while complaining about money. She asked what shopping we had done, and what we planned to do… “We haven’t been. We can’t this year, there is no money” Now she is kicking herself because of feeling like an ass for saying all about what she’s been buying for her kids.

No one realizes that there are families out there who can’t get anything for their kids for Christmas.

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Looks like I have another Cyst that burst? I’ll find out tomorrow when I go in for another ultrasound. (Like I said I can’t handle this shit)

I could have gotten a script for pain meds, but I’d rather just cry in the shower and hope I can relax without getting the dizzy feeling from taking something.

I wish I could just crawl into a ball and cry. I’d love to just hang out in my big ole’ recliner, sipping my tea, and reading a book.

The baby is napping, Marc said the stuff on the front of my truck is from the Carwash he went to yesterday. That’s a whole lot better than what I was thinking. Paint or something similar all over my truck? Thank goodness no.

I can’t help but wonder if I’ll be able to handle this Christmas.

I’ll be Thirty the day after. This is the FIRST YEAR we won’t be getting ANYTHING for anyone. We’re supposed to come up with two $20 gifts for Marc’s step siblings for Christmas. They do this exchange thing, I’m hoping I can pull $40 out of my ass to do that.

And with all of this going on? I still want to open a photography studio?! I must be insane. Won’t that “business” be another money pit?

I guess with the fact this house was built in 1906, and nothing major has been done in the past 80 years, we get to do it all… I’m still pissed that Art thinks the windows isn’t important & Is making Marc second guess himself about the whole thing. I really hope he stays committed. I get it, we have no extra money, and when taxes come in, we’ll be paying for shit we NEED. But I say, those windows are def part of the top must do.

I have about an hour before I have to go back to work and bring those little angels home, I think I’ll go watch “American Horror Stories:Coven” from last night (if it’s on “OnDemand”)