Unhappily Me

It’s hard to think you can spend all your life feeling whole. Then one day, your best friend moves away, and suddenly, You’re ripped apart. Living your life in Half. Half a parent, half a friend, half a person. Things are missing. Things you don’t realize aren’t there… Until It’s too late. I just have to wonder. What happened that I feel lost, I can’t go on. I don’t want to. I want to spend the next three months sleeping and missing everything. Living life the way I am… I feel Left out. missing a huge part of me. the people I trust aren’t here, The one’s I wish I could trust, I find reasons not to. Does the new guy my best girl friend have… could he? I dont’ know, But things say, he might be a hitting jerk, To be kind. He won’t let me get to know him, and I feel like he’s a controling… Well, Lets not get there.

Now I have to wonder, When in May is my best guy friend going to be up here to visit? when will I see him? will my life go on without him or will i just want to pass out from working myself like this?

The contest thing I was in, First place for our school, Then we got our asses kicked when we went to regionals, Mostly because we didn’t know about the damn back drops and props. Ass holes! Why didn’t we get the same set of rules? Life sucks.

The concert my best friend and I, and her sister, went to was cool! we stood in line from 1130 am, and then got this GREAT freaking seat! 8 feet away from him. When people got in our way, They shoooo-ed them away. It was cool. The seat was like one of those round VIP tables/Booths! And after the show, Keith gave my bandana to someone else so I had to buy a new one, Then they brought me back to meet him because I didn’t have it signed anymore. And DANG! That was awsome. So yeah, Good has bad, Everyday. And today… I just feel like Half a person after seeing what life can be like when you have that perfect person. I have to wonder… Is Jim My soul Mate? is that why I can’t live right without him? Maybe not… But he’s close to it.!